At My Husband’s Funeral, I Placed a Rose in His Hands and Discovered the Note He Never Got to Give Me

At first I assumed it was a card from the funeral home, something about the service or a private note of condolence.
But as I leaned closer, my stomach went cold.
It was folded like a message. A note.
My heart began to pound. Who would slip a note into my husband’s hands and not tell me? Why would it be hidden? I stood there for a long moment, frozen between fear and disbelief.
Then I told myself the one thing I needed in order to move.
I have the right.
He was my husband. My life. My home. My person for thirty six years. If there was something in his hands, meant to be unseen, I had the right to know.
With as much care as I could manage, I slipped the folded paper free. My hands shook. I kept my face composed because I could feel eyes on me, but my body was vibrating with panic.
I walked straight to the bathroom down the hall and closed the door behind me.
The click of the lock sealed out the murmur of voices and the soft music. Under the harsh light above the mirror, I unfolded the paper, smoothing the creases against the counter. It had been folded into tight squares, the kind of folding you do when you carry something close for a long time.
And there, in Greg’s familiar handwriting, I saw my name.
Mara.
Greg was the only person left who still called me Mara the way he did, like it was more than a name. Like it was something he treasured.
My breath caught as I read.
He wrote that if I was holding the note, it meant he did not get to tell me something himself. He apologized. He asked me not to let them bury him with it because it was meant for me.
Then came the line that made my knees weak.
There’s something I should have said years ago. The right time never came.
He told me there was an envelope in the back pocket of his brown winter coat, the one I always teased him about because it was old and stubbornly plain. He asked me to take it home and open it when I was alone.
And then, as if he knew exactly what my mind would do, he added one more request.
Please don’t hate me before you know everything.
I folded the note quickly, pressing it into my purse as if it might burn through my skin.
That evening, after the last guests left and the casseroles lined my counters like a strange parade of kindness, the house went quiet in a way that felt unfamiliar.
For thirty six years, I had never truly been alone in that house.
I walked to the closet.
Greg’s brown winter coat was still hanging there, smelling faintly of rain and his aftershave. My hand slid into the back pocket, and my fingers touched thick paper.
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